tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5401055091892091482.post9015745402423253534..comments2023-07-27T06:15:34.078-07:00Comments on INSIDE - My Life as a Gay Mormon: Winding PathAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11814495288142840602noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5401055091892091482.post-15833986834849193382010-03-02T06:38:17.894-08:002010-03-02T06:38:17.894-08:00Staying in the church isn't a decision--it'...Staying in the church isn't a decision--it's a lifetime of decisions, because you're gay, and you're always going to long for a relationship that feels natural to you. You'll find that every day is a struggle between your heart and your mind (or your spirit, if you prefer).<br /><br />Choosing to have that relationship is a decision. It's final. It closes the door (not permanently, granted, but at least somewhat resoundingly) on the church. It has some finality to it.<br /><br />So far you've never really chosen anything but the church. You may have wavered slightly in that decision, but you've never really renounced it. So you've had to re-choose every day.<br /><br />If you don't want to face this decision every day for the rest of your life, you need to follow your heart and make the choice that allows your true nature to be satisfied. That's where you'll find closure and peace.<br /><br />Whether that closure and peace is worth the sacrifice you'll make (in the loss of fellowship, etc.) is entirely up to you.<br /><br />(I <i>don't</i> believe, though, that choosing a relationship--and losing the church--needs to mean losing your relationship with God. The church teaches us that we can have a personal relationship with Him. If that's true, then the church's role as an intercessor is not entirely necessary).Scotthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15332275934258698026noreply@blogger.com