Being a Mormon and being gay is hard. There is an instant disconnect from the church family that I feel. I'm not a "real" Mormon. That feeling of not belonging can be quite lonesome. There is an instant disconnect from the gay community that I feel. I'm not a "real" gay. That feeling of not belonging can be quite lonesome. Where does this leave me?
|It took me a while to find a photo without underwear |
or overt sexual displays. Sad.
I have, for the longest time, felt an annoyance with the gay movement. It's deep philosophical and ideological affair with liberalism and its ever present "look at me" ego. I understand that to gain equality there needs to be a movement and a discussion which requires a spotlight, but the gay community seeks much more than that.
The politics of most gays plop in the middle of liberalism — which I abhor. The snarky comments about closet republicans and the out right ignorant comments made to conservatives are just as stupid and bigoted as the radical religious right's comments to the gays. I move more and more everyday to the libertarian side of the political cube. But it is the biased and uniformed views of a majority of the gay groups that drive me and my political beliefs to a place of isolation. I have said to myself many a times, "It gets better", but not referring to the pressures of being gay, but to the pressures of those gays who are angry with me because of my political beliefs.
I choose to distance myself from gay pride celebrations. With all that it is suppose to represent gay pride is merely a celebration with its underwear wearing sex filled air. I know there are groups and people at pride celebrating their freedom to be who they are, and for them I garner only the deepest respect. But when the totality of pride is out weighed the sexual overtness I can't help but want nothing to do with it. For a movement that wishes to be seen and accepted as everyone else, we sure love to prance around in skimpy underwear and flaunt sex in public like none other.
Let's have a gay pride celebration. But let do it sans the underwear wearing filled floats, minus the porn star booths, and without championing everything pointless and unfruitful. Let's make it something worthwhile.
I really did not mean to turn this post into a rant. I really have other issues with the gay community that stand a more respectable discussion, but theres to much I have to deal with first before I have any desire to associate myself with the gay community at large.