February 24, 2013
Who Am I?
What I want to be:
I want to live in New Hampshire. I want to be married to a man I love equally as he loves me. I want to work for the same non-profit I work for now, helping people with disabilities. I want to own a mini cooper and a nice bungalow craftsman style home. I want to spend my spare time working on presidential campaigns, meeting the men and women who want to run the country.
That is what I want to be.
Who I want to be:
A good person.
There should be more than that. There must be more than that. There needs to be more than that.
My problem, I think, is that I spend far to much time on the outward expressions: what I wear, what my title is at work, who I spend my time with, and what others think of me. I have built a kind and gentle hearted guy, who is sensitive to others needs and wants. I am someone whose parents are complimented on having raised such a nice young man. But I have no inner drive—beyond getting all of these things of what I want to be. I have no inner drive of who I want to be.
How does one get that? Where does one get that? What do I need to change or start or stop to get that?