Sometimes I wonder if I am going to be single the rest of my life. Sometimes I hope I am. I'm sure at some point in all moho's coming out experience we think we could be celibate the rest of our lives and make it being faithful in the church. For most that thought doesn't last long. I know I have had those thoughts here and there over the past few years (though not recently). That is no longer a path I would choose to entertain. I do however fantasize and even hope I remain a bachelor the rest of my life.
GQ, I told him he wasn't allowed to do the dishes, because he would do them the wrong way (not my way) and I would end up doing them once he left anyways. I have control issues to say the least. I understand a relationship is about giving up on selfish habits and all that ooey gooey stuff, but I don't really desire that.
I love to dream about having my craftsman style home and all my furniture and my design studio, and the appliances and hardware in my kitchen. Everything that I envision is mine. Not someone else's, and not shared. I love envisioning that home of mine, and I don't feel bad or sad about being a bachelor in it. In wanting to be single, isn't to say Im shunning sex, I love sex, and I think sex with someone close to you is very important. However, the whole relationship aspect doesn't appeal to me right.
Perhaps with meeting a remarkable bloke and falling in love that will change, but honestly its not something I am hoping for. Right now I am perfectly content and excited even to have it just be me.