November 2, 2009
Well, the saga continues...
My (former) future roommate found a job today, which was going to be the go ahead with finalizing the apartment.
(notice all the past tense words)
So after hearing the good news that he found a job I asked, "So we are good to move ahead with the apartment then?"
He shook his head and responded, "No, we need to talk about that."
My heart sunk and I figured it was over.
Tonight as we were riding transit home together from FHE, I asked, "so whats up with the apartment?"
He related that he had just felt as if he should stay in his current place, and this was in response to his prayers from the past couple of days.
Now how can I refute an answer to prayers? Do I believe it was an answer to his prayers, or a knee jerk reaction to his potential roommate confessing he likes men?
Not sure, but I'd go with the latter.
All in all, I am really actually peaceful with this new situation, (and no I don't think I'm in denial and defense mode from the rejection). I will now be able to have a place all to myself, which I usually prefer, and will be able to live anywhere I want. I don't need to worry about others messes, or others schedules, or others not paying bills.
I usually prefer to do things on my own, so maybe living on my own will be the best.
So I am actually pleased with the living situation. But the fact that my sexual orientation has put some form of road block in this friendship worries me. We will see how the friendship plays out over the next few days and weeks, and I will keep you posted.