October 23, 2009

Something New



I have been doing a lot of thinking upon what I am doing with my life, and who I was, am and want to become. I have once again changed the look of the blog, and added a few things. These changes, I believe, more closely match what is going on in my head. I have added the video above which will feature the YouTube Mormon Messages. Not because I want to indoctrinate anyone, but because I believe in the church and I sustain the leaders. I understand not all of us in the MoHo world do, but I do, and I should be able to share that on MY blog.

I want to also blog about this months topic.

Are you happy with where you are? why or why not?

Where do you see yourself in the future?
What advice do you have for others following a similar path that you have?
What advice do you have for family and friends?

Are you happy with where you are? why or why not?

I am my own person. I am very happy with where I am in my life. I am still a member of a church that I believe in. I have an awesome family, some of which know I like men and some don't, and right now I am ok with that. I am at college studying a topic that I love, and want to make a career out of. I have friends who I care about, and who care about me.

Where do you see yourself in the future?

This is a tough one. Right now, I see myself as a happy, single man, who is still active and happily serving in the church. I fill any void of loneliness I may feel with spending time with my parents, siblings and friends, who all know I like men. They support me and am happy that I am still active in the church, and I am happy I am too.

I have many gay friends, who are a great support to me, and aren't trying to get me to hook up with a man so I can fill some imaginary void in my life. All in all, I am following my heart, which is strongly tied to the church. I am my own person.

What advice do you have for others following a similar path that you have?

We each want to be intimate with a man, and have that loving companionship. Those are the things we share.

We, however, are different in our levels and depths of testimony, and ability/desire to cling to the rod. That is ok, we don't all have to be the same. We don't, and shouldn't force each other on to the path we have trod, we can each make our own path, and support each other where ever that path may lead. This journey is hard for us all, and we don't need condemnation from one another because of the path we have decided to take. This goes for those who have left the church, and those who are actively participating. Be your own person.

What advice do you have for family and friends?

This is our own 'hell on earth', torn between two things we love. Be patient, be understanding, but be firm and steadfast in your own convictions.

Just because I like men, doesn't mean you need to put a rainbow flag outside your home. It does mean that I deserve the same respect you gave me before you knew I liked men. It does mean I want you to understand and listen to my perspective on things. I want to teach you what I'm going through, but I don't expect you to agree with everything I say. Be your own person. We can live harmoniously, and still disagree.

4 comments:

  1. Awesome post Quinn. I too am a believer. I agree with concur with your last two paragraphs. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

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  2. I liked your advice to family. If I ever tell my dad, I might have to steal a few lines. hehe.

    and I like these pictures better. they're missionary-ish.

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  3. I want you to know I have so much respect for you.

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  4. Hey, I totally respect you and you should be able to put what ever you want on your blog cuz its Yours! there will always be jerks who don't like what you put up cuz they are uncomfortable with themselves. Dude I hope you the best and love reading your blog.

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