July 6, 2009
Coming out to my BFF
I have known J since birth. As far back as I can remember, I remember her. For most of my life I knew I would marry her. We have always been close, and everyone around us knew that we were inseparable. She was a constant letter writer on my mission. I think you get the idea.
Well after the mish, we talked at length and determined that a relationship of anything past friends is not for us, and I was ok with it. Well J had been going through some rough things in her life when I was on my mission and she finally told me about them last fall. I was there for her, and promised our relationship would not change because of what she was going through. I was in a sense her rock, not only emotionally, but spiritually.
Well, I have determined this summer its my turn to tell her of what I have been going through for most of my life. I am scared, and worried, of how she will take it. I think it will be a shock to her, as I think I'm pretty straight acting, and she knew I wanted to marry her. However I am worried of hurting her, I mean the sadness she will experience. I hope she doesn't experience it, but its a possibility. I know, or at least hope that with me being 100% honest with her, it will strengthen our friendship.
I am visiting her in a couple weeks and have determined to tell her. I just pray for the best result.