July 22, 2009
I had a conversation with my brother coming home from soccer tonight.
FYI I am not out to him.
My brother and I got talking about girls somehow. I have a little bit of attraction to women which makes talking about girls to my brother more comfortable then if I had to lie to him. We got on the subject, AGAIN, about how I haven't kissed a girl since I was 12.
He asked me several questions such as: Does it scare you to kiss a girl? Are you afraid your not a good kisser? Why don't you just find a girl and make out with her?
As I explained to him several time before this, and reminded him again tonight, I don't want to kiss a girl until I know that I like her more than a friend. It has something to do with respecting her and being honest with her.
My brother is a good guy, but thinks that if the girl is OK making out with him, then why not make out. I find that very disrespectful to women.
Then I got thinking....
Do I feel the same way about guys?
In my past I have had my random make out sessions with guys I barley knew. Am I respecting them, or holding myself to the same standard I do for women? NO.
Maybe I use the respect issue with women as a barrier because I really don't want to make out with them. Nevertheless, I should have the decency and respect for men that I have for women. I want to respect men and not just make out with them unless I have true feelings for them.
Does that mean If I met a cutie I wont kiss him, probably not, but I am going to be more respectful to him and to myself, and not give kisses out like pretzels (something I heard in church once lol).